What If?

There I was, stretching out my hamstring in sheer agony, as I was in the midst of a double-header at my local yoga and spinning studio.

I just came off of the bike after a grueling 55 minute spinning class, headed to the mat for a yin yoga class. Yin yoga works on the fascia covering your muscles and ligaments…working on deeper tissue. While you only complete 6-8 poses over the 75 minute class, each pose is held for a longer period of time, allowing you to work on these tissues that will ultimately make you more limber and flexible.

What they also tell you is that each pose will make you feel uncomfortable. Each pose will make you want to scream out with discomfort and you want to be anywhere but in that posture in that yoga class.

I know…I speak from experience.

So, there I was in the midst of a dragon pose…working on my extremely tight hips (apparently the hips are where you can carry alot of stress) and I was forcing my mind to be in the moment working through the extreme discomfort I was feeling.

While I tried to be present and dealing with the discomfort of the posture both physically and mentally, I was off thinking about something entirely different causing me to grin. Grinning is not something I typically do when I am in the midst of a hip-opener with beads of sweat dripping off the tip of my nose into a pool on my yoga mat.

But there I was, almost giddy as I was thinking about an event taking place later on.

Today is December 21st. Yes, its the end of the world as we know it (NOT). Its also the day that the numbers are drawn for the Lotto Max…a lottery where you can win as much as $50 million.

Thats what was making me grin as I was transitioning into my sleeping pidgeon pose (I would explain it to you but you would cringe if I told you what I was doing on the mat!).

$50 million.

Holy shit…that is a ton of dough. A game-changer. A life-changer.

I began laughing to myself at the euphoric state I would be in if I ever won a lottery as big as that.

Do you ever take one of those big cleansing sighs that make you feel really great? Winning $50 million would be like taking an uber-mega-large sigh….a sigh of relief.

That twenty ton weight that is on my shoulders right now would suddenly be lifted and I would feel light and airy….like a bird.

Bad analogy, i know, but I cannot comprehend the sense of relief I would feel knowing that a humongus burden would be removed from me. Imagine…never, ever having to worry about money. Imagine removing any debt from the equation. Imagine, being free to do whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted.

Freedom….liberation. Awesome.

I began imagining what I would do first. I began imagining scenarios of who/what I should give a portion of my winnings to. Of course, I would pay off any debt I have…ensure that my two daughters never have to worry about finances as they go through their own life. But then I would look to helping out immediate family. The question is, “how much to give” and “who to give it to”.

I began imagining fights I would get into with my wife over how much of our new-found fortune to give to family members. Maybe we should just earmark $10 million for family and live on the remaining $40 million? Hell, if we invested wisely, we could live quite comfortably on the interest earned.

I thought about trips I have wanted to take, events I have wanted to celebrate. I have imagined having the option to not work. I have imagined telling my wife that she can quit her lousy job and do whatever she wants to make her happy. Money is no longer a problem.

Spinal twist up next…this is going to be painful. Out of my dreams now…back to reality. My thorasic spine is feeling it as I twist my back to release any tension I might be feeling. Yeah, I have tension…but its not from a sore thorasic spine.

Money is supposedly the root of all evil. I hate material trappings…but I love the idea of having the ability to remove money from the equation – to not have to worry about making ends meet…about paying the bills at the end of each month…of not thinking twice when my kid asks for money to go out with friends….to have a condo in a warm and tropical place where I could go with my family and enjoy.

I will check my numbers in the morning. For now, I am enjoying too much the idea of freedom.

We will see what tomorrow brings.

If anything, I can re-live this fantasy the next time I buy a Lotto Max ticket.

Wish me luck.


About I'm Just A Dad

Stephen Gosewich is just a Dad (he is a former Enlightened Male but decided to change the name because when you search Enlightened Male, "other...wink, wink" are displayed. He spends his days during the week as a working stiff. At all other times, he just enjoys hanging out with his best friend and wife and their two very active and inspiring daughters.
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